You should control your drinking when ...

... your maid warns you against it.

So this is how it happened.

I came back home pretty much wasted one night( or was it twilight?). I keep my front-door open so that my maid doesn't have to take pains to ring the bell for hours and I don't have to get out of my cozy bed to open the door. Anyway, I digress. So, she comes in and she finds me sleeping on my bed with the ash-tray on my chest and can you believe it - a cigarette in my mouth. A cigartette in you mouth while you are sleeping - How stupid can you get???????
She said a lot of things and I had no idea what she was saying as I was dying to complete my last-ball-bowling-hero-cricket-dream.
So, the next day she comes in and the only thing she says is " Bhaiya, bahut ho gaya, ab aap aisa karoge toh hum aapke Mummy ko bol denga". Here she was giving her last Italian-mafia style warning.
Now, readers, kindly note before reading the consequence of this event :
- Before this incident, I was pretty much sure that my maid was happy because she comes everyday to a flat who's owner is drunk asleep and doesn't care whether his maid cleans the house everyday or not. Also, she gets to sell so many bottles of beer and whisky everyday. But after the " sleeping yourself to glory with a cigg. in mouth" episode I came to know how much she was concerned and disappointed about my state of affairs.
- I also knew that she would never be able to tell my mom as they come to visit me once or twice a year and also she is not the kind who would take pleasure in telling a mother what her son is up to.

Whether it was my maid's concern for me or my realization of the stupidity to create a big accident or my being fed-up of drinking or me realising the ill-effects of drinking, the result is that I have had alcohol only once in 8 days. Also, I have been washing my drinking glasses myself just to make sure that my maid doesn't find out that I was drinking again.

For now, I just hope that I get back to my normal-social-drinking ways. Cheers to that!!!
And for a change I so don't want to sing

Last time I was sober, man I felt bad

Worst hangover that I ever had

It took six hamburgers and scotch all night

Nicotine for breakfast just to put me right

cos if you wanna run cool

If you wanna run cool

you got to run

On heavy, heavy fuel

Times they are a changing

Every time I write I "try" to be grammatically correct and coherent. And every time I want to write I keep in mind that people are reading( at least in the recent past). But as someone had said "I will love it if you write for yourself and not for others to read", so today I write for myself.

7Th Dec 2007, was the first time when I knew that my life with White was never going to culminate into marriage. After that I saw

  -  me breaking up with White

  - seven very close people breaking-up

  - my senior in college, my mentor and one of my best friends fighting for his         relationship and in the life that he believes in

 -  me realising my true calling in terms of career and getting a job which goes         on hold because of recession

 -  and many more things which I want to forget

That was 2008 in short. I was counting on the number of days left in 2008. And then happened 8th Dec 2008.  I was one of the three witnesses to a love-marriage of one of my friends. Something good has finally happened in my life. And now I want to believe that my time has changed. Now I want to believe that whomsoever I touch won't be jinxed.

  I have nearly been drinking all through the year. I am nearly an alcoholic and nearly a chain-smoker. Now is the time for me to change. I know whatever I have wished in life has not come true but somehow my gut-feeling says that things will change henceforth. This time I won't fail.

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

P.S. - All you people reading this - stick with me because everyone around me will have a golden luck this year - and that's my gut-feeling and and at least my gut has never failed me.

Come gather round people wherever you roam

And admit that the waters around you have grown

And accept it that soon youll be drenched to the bone

If your time to you is worth saving

Then youd better start swimming or youll sink like a stone

For the times, they are a changing

- Bob Dylan